How NYC has changed me - Let's Look At the Facts, Shall We? (20th Post!)

Hi darling reader!

It is 3:35AM in New York right now. I do not feel tired. I believe that teenagers have a primal instinct to get in at least 1 sleepless night per month - anything else and we feel too grown-up.

Anygays, I was just looking over this little blog here and I realized that a) I haven't written for a while and b) I've kind of already changed as a person a little bit since moving here.

So I'd like to compose a list (Oh yay, I love those) of how the 16-year old wide-eyed Estonian girl that just moved to the big city differs from me now:

1) I have a wider perspective on my place in the universe. 

When I was a little kid I watched a show on TV called: "Buratino Tegutseb Jälle", it was something similar to Pinocchio. I was in love with all the characters - that show represents my childhood. When the show ended its long run, there was an interview with all of the actors and BTS crowd.

And one of them (I sadly can't recall who) said: "You know, Estonia is so small, that you can't really do anything big. You're not really famous here."

You see, as a 2nd grader, this struck me as absolutely insane. The whole country - being called small? How can that be?

As I've grown up, I've gradually begun to realize what he meant.

I've begun to realize how small this country on the coast of the Baltic Sea really is...And how special too.

It humbles and terrifies me to think that I'm a minuscule fraction of a speck of dust in human existence. I am so unbelievably small. (Even though my butt just got the compliment: "Damn gurl, your booty's so big, you've got a black girl butt." But that's another story.)

2) I appreciate Estonia more. 

I've always loved my homeland. Undeniably. When you move around a lot as a kid it's nice to have an anchor to hold on to, I guess.

But the time I've been here, that bond has only gotten stronger. I'm glad to tell them about my little country in the Baltics. We just got nominated for an Oscar, damn it!

If I see another Estonian here an instant bond is made. (Seriously, ran into an Estonian girl at a party once - she spent the whole night listening to me say: "jäääär"...She might've been slightly intoxicated, but she was still a lovely girl.)

I'm also very glad of the fact that I got a job in an Estonian company here. I work for Estofoods, promoting rye bread (leib ;) in markets. I just had my first gig. It was awesome :)

Furthermore, I'm looking forward to going home too. I know, I'll appreciate the summer to come so much more.

3) I now know that the "NYC lifestyle" they advertise in "Sex and The City" has some truth in it, but it's just mostly bullpoopy. 

Yes, I've gone to Starbucks. Yes, I've had bagels. Yes, I've complained about not getting a cab to my friend on the Iphone. Yes, I've gone to Macy's (haven't bought anything though - very expensive). And yes, I do try to avoid Times Sq a little bit - It's TOO crowded, I've got stuff to do. (And yes, I've also started walking faster.)

But actually the NYC glamorous lifestyle isn't some magical thing you will automatically have when you move here - what you'll have here is just your life. And that can be much more special than whatever Carrie Bradshaw could be up to.

Those little NYC quirks will come naturally if you want them to. You're not handed a "This is How-To New York", please follow these instructions.

This city is full of people doing their own thing - that's why there's no handbook. I don't think we actually need one.

4) I have made the bond between girl and theatre stronger than ever. 

I can't let go anymore. Music, theatre and film have crawled their way into my heart and they're never letting go.
Julie Andrews won't let me. (I still love her. If you ever read this, Julie, I will personally gather up every favorite thing you listed and give them to you as a present.)

Also, "Chaundria and the Giant" (previously known as "Fish In a Tree" just had it's debut on the stage. I talked about the play in my previous post.

The musical was a huge success, it was a crime that we only got to perform it twice. It was incredible what we accomplished with just 5 rehearsal days!

I am so very happy that I got to be a part of this amazing cast, they are all incredibly talented.

And whether they read this blog or not, whether they know or not - they helped me discover a bit more of myself as a performer and as a human being.

THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART :)

Keep flying those sausages and having ratty-patties!

5) I can almost-kind-of write. 

Seriously. I never knew this!

I love to make my friends laugh and I've kept journals for a long time, but I never thought I'd be the kind of person whose words on paper (computer screen) would make people chuckle. Yet, so many of you have said that they like what they're reading. Thank you to you guys.

I guess I just needed the right push and the right material - thanks NYC!

And as if I haven't said "Thank you" in this blog enough -- my everlasting gratitude for reading!

The Time Viv Told You That SHE WAS IN A MUSICAL IN NYC!

Day 6 of Blogathon of Wonderfullness of 2015


HI! :) I hope you liked the random-ness that ensued in the last two days. In today's post I actually have some news to share with you.

I've been accepted into a musical production called "Fish In a Tree" by Three Act Theatre Company here in NYC.

...I don't even. I just. I CAN'T EVEN. Yes, I'm using the most used Internet phrase in 2014 and I don't care.

This is a photograph from our first rehearsal yesterday:

(I'm definitely there - the blonde hair just combines with the wall really well...)















I actually auditioned for it in December of last year. I saw the ad on Facebook of all pages and thought it was an awesome opportunity.

The mission statement really stood out to me - "Everything we do, we believe in creating a better world for the generations that follow. A world that recognizes we are one planet, one consciousness, one human race. We believe in being that change."

The way it's set up is that I, as a student, get to learn from the actors in the company, while being in the production. It did have an academic fee, but for what they're offering, it's not a lot for New York.

I went in for the audition completely nervous - absolutely shaking. It was a 2h process - we had to learn a dance routine, perform it, sing, recite a prepared monologue and do some improv with the script.

When I got the e-mail that I'd been accepted...Imagine this times a hundred:

I'm playing a few small parts, have a few lines and I'm going to try out to be an understudy for a bigger role. Don't know yet :)

The play is REALLY cute - it's a fairytale about princesses, giants, princes, dragons etc. WITH some little twists. The brilliant writers have updated it to include some great comedy and also some tear-jerking moments.

I'll update you on how the rehearsals are going as we go along. Right now, I'm just really happy to be a part of it.


Thank you for reading ;) (One more day to go on the blogathon. I'm feeling that burn.)